quit again

so i have quit smoking once again. i did slip once today but for 3 days i've not had cigs. trying the patch again. if readers out there have any tips hints on making this work this time please let me know. any opinions on smoke away? ok... enough of my pleas for help on this ... back to the regularly scheduled program.

automation makes us dumb

oh how true this is... think about all the stuff taken care of by a computer for you in your day to day. hell, toilets even flush themselves nowadays. our computers remeber our passwords. our phones store all of our phone numbers. ask us anything... we don't know the answer but we sure as hell know that the answer can be found on some gadget. *shakes head* simplier times really did make us smarter. guess that is how we got here where we are today.

had to add this tidbit before bed. now i can rest peacefully.

nite all.

only on days that end in y

welcome once again to my wild world of wacky. so today is like any other day for me. i have decided to add amusements/rants of the week to this post ...

squirrels... oh black squirrels.. acrobatic squirrels... suicidal squirrels... oh how i love thee let me count the ways

parks with no public restrooms.... hmmmm?

very nice customers ... in the area i am working i have gotten more thank yous and nice comments than i can count . YAY!

hound dogs... make me think of my childhood

traffic... the bane of my existence

naps ... need i say more? *wink*

tick season has begun.... found my first little bastard today biting my side.... lovely

abundance of topless weather... knew trading the convertible on my first mustang was definately a good trade for the v8... who needs all that power when you can cruise effortlessly in the warm summer sunshine

well enough of that.

i find it difficult to believe may is nearly here. its easter weekend... one of my all time favorite holidays. everything is blooming and the weather is just warm enough with cool nights and mornings what more could a girl ask for?

done.

wtf?

nothing pisses off the working class any more than having someone practically living at your house who doesn't pay bills and is at your house more than you are. i go to work each day so that i can have said roof over my head and all the utilities associated with living here. think about it. call me passive aggressive or better yet hostile.... however if you had someone constantly in your space and using your utilities you would feel the same way too. especially if every time you come home from working a long day and they are continually chilling. there is a distinct difference between just visiting and out staying your welcome.

this is in no way intended by me to alienate our constant house guest. however i have to rant somewhere. no better place than here on my blog. maybe even serve as a gentle reminder to folks out there... don't open invite people to your home if you have a job and life... it only becomes frustrating every time you see that they are once again at your house.

done for now.

monday

so yeah i'm having major case of the mondays. my truck has no tags. so i can't go to work. lady gave the wrong addy to fedex. so my new temp plates did not come. rrrrraarrrr. want to sleep but too much swimming in my head. too much i want to do and just not enough energy...or ability to get anything done. maybe tomorrow i will get to go back to work.... normalacy... or not.

can only be me

Over the past few days I have come to realize that I am at best disfunctional and have alot of complex thoughts and feelings. Simplicty is something that apparently I abandoned in childhood. I enjoy being me, however at times it can be very lonely at the working end of a very independent mind. I like to do things for myself. I like to be on the go all of the time. I have goals and dreams. I am afraid of quiet. This weekend I have primarily had the house to myself. Almost like living alone again. Truth be told it is quite vacant. I am a very social creature and the time by myself has been curious. However, I did decide to day to embrace that quiet and just get things done here at home. Think tomorrow I will do the same.

I actually need time to think and ponder all there is to everything. So now I sleep.... hopefully will invlove sleeping in as well. I don't get enough sleep these days... too damn busy bodied. Fighting the urge to finish laundry or clean my room tonight... see i really am just a crazy individual who just has to be doing something all the time. so now i'm forcing myself to have some down time. I can only be me. However sometimes me is just too much... hehe.

oh wait.... other good news

was reading my previous posts.... guess i forgot to update everyone on my blog about my arborist test.... I PASSED.... i am now a certified arborist!!!! yay!!!! now if only my pay check starts to reflect this accomplishment... i'll be good to go :-P

fate

so i had to make a choice tonight... i honestly don't think i had finalized how i was feeling until posed with a choice. fate has dealt me a blind card... i was quite afraid to act on it ... yet this week i did finally decide to do so. i met someone who i under normal circumstances would not have even made a play for. he seemed like a nice guy who was just minding his own business. handsome. well groomed. out going. then he asked me if i'd go out with him some time. i was floored by his intrest and i actually wavered for a long while... but a few phone calls and a text or so later. there i was ... meeting someone i had just met in passing a week before. i have decided that maybe fate has handed me a blind card... but letting it sit idle would have been my worst mistake.
so all went well monday, we enjoyed hanging out. we are keeping in touch and will hopefully get together again soon. i have no clue where this will all take me. but i definately intend to enjoy myself and enjoy spending time with someone new.
it has been a long time since anyone has made me feel so special or desired. i find it difficult to take it all in. kinda like a dream sequence in a tv sit com gone bad at times. i'm waiting to wake up and it all be some cruel joke. maybe that is not necessiarly how i should be looking at this. but for the time being i am content with myself and i am hoping all will continue to go well.
speaking of waking up i do have to sleep... so i can get up in the morning. however i did need to get my feelings and thoughts down before i could actually get back to my slumber.
so now back to my life taking it one day at a time. cheers!